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♥ Friday, July 15, 2005 ♥ 10:51 PM
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Today's a special day... but the special feeling wasn't around. *sigh*

Today is our two year seven month anniversary.

Few weeks ago, I had planned to meet him on the day itself to celebrate, if not, it'll be the next day. But few days ago, he told me that on 15th n 16th, he got something on (study plus some outing with his friends). What I had planned I never tell him, I don't think I should anyway because I don't want him to cancel his plans with his friends because of girlfriend. But I don't know... *sigh* I feel so confused now.

This morning was great. We exchanged some sweet messages. Then after late morning, everything seems so strange. I messaged him, he never replies. I feel so distanced from him. *sigh* I did think a lot a couple of times. I can't help it. I know I want to change. I know. I haven't forgotten about it.

I miss him. I really do. Suddenly I feel so lonely without him. It's like I've already gotten use of him being with me. *sigh* I really miss him a lot. No words can ever ever describe how I'm feeling now.

Baby, I miss you.
I miss your sweet kisses.
I miss your strong arms.
I miss your tender hugs.
I miss your sleepy eyes.
I miss your cute laughter.
I miss your loving touch.

I'm missing you, boy.
No words can ever ever describe how I feel for you.
You are unreplaceable, you are mine.
I want only you, boy.
No words can ever ever describe how I feel for you.
You are my everything, you are mine.

Till my last breath, I give you my word,
I love you, Alvin.